THIS DECEMBER

December sneaks up on me every year tying a little bow around everything I accomplished (or failed to accomplish) within the last 12 months and I’m left with the scraps of broken promises. I’m left with recurring resolutions and unspoken guarantees. I’m left with all the things I said I would do, but didn’t instead. I’m left with a highway of dreams with goals as mile markers and an ocean of potential drowning in procrastination. December… it always surprises me with the gift of truth.

I’m the type of person who prefers fresh starts and clean breaks, I like the volume of our television to be on an even number, I’m the type of person who can tell if someone has been in the rooms of our home and exactly what they’ve touched while in there because everything has its place. Every single thing has a purpose, including people. I have faith that God put every person where they are for a reason and moves them around according to His plan. He gives us talents and provides us with relationships and experiences to nurture them in hopes we’ll share them.

I’m the type of person that overanalyzes my decisions long after they’ve been made rashly. I tend to prefer silence over noise and find comfort in the voices of those that sing our feelings better than we articulate them. I’m the type of person that mentally rewrites my past a million times instead of focusing on the chapters ahead.  Tomorrow is always the beginning and yesterday the end while I’m stuck in the struggle of today constantly plotting the path instead of trekking it.

This December, I want things to be different. Instead of waiting for the New Year to make a declaration of things I want to improve and do and make and create, why not now? Why not start now? December, Christmas, the season of perpetual hope that wraps us up within our walls to soak in the warmth of our loved ones. December, the month reserved to reminisce the many memories each ornament on our tree recalls. Why not December? Sometimes you need a head start to feel like you’re not that far behind.