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June 9, 2013

I'll never forget... she told me the news on October 3, 2010. It was mid-morning on a Sunday when Allison handed me a stick with a cap on it confirming she was pregnant. We were having a baby. I immediately asked her to take the second test of the boxed pair while I was present. I wanted to supervise to make sure there wasn’t any room for error (really I wanted to stall while I soaked in the information). Ideally, I would have liked to pause time while I found the strength to carry the weight of this announcement.

She felt nauseous. I drummed my fingers on the bathroom counter. She capped the stick and cried. I felt nauseous. She passed me the instructions to compare the positive result a second time. I wanted to cry.  This pregnancy was unplanned (though not a mistake, never a mistake)... we were not prepared.

We sat together in a place of knowing that night and let the fog of nerves and fear surround us before allowing the light of excitement to shine through. Those emotions would carry us on a rollercoaster of twists and turns for the next nine months as I watched my wife’s body slowly expand to make room for a love we never knew existed. A type of love we never knew we were capable of giving.  We promised ourselves we would do the best we could and believed (still do) that everything happens for a reason. 
From this point forward, everything would change for the better. We were having a baby.


  1. Was it unplanned? Is that why you had a roller coaster of emotions after finding out?

    1. It was unplanned, but sometimes the best things in life are surprises! Right?


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